26 July 2017 @ 06:17 pm

Prompt here

The thorn is sharp

‘Neath gleaming blossom

Bright in the lamp

Of Springtime’s sun

The guard before the

Gate to pleasure

Its prick as fierce

As edge of sword

The words that bite

The eyes that cut

All you see

Is love beneath

But should you want

My heart as yours

Respect the thorn

With which I greet

26 July 2017 @ 12:24 pm
Not even fandom can hold back the sick feelings that real-world news has been bringing, much less get me through calling my m.f. red-state-senators as often as I can make myself, so my IG has ballooned with all manner of OTT cooking and baking accounts. Some of them only last a couple of days, so I'm always looking for more, which is how I stumbled over So Yummy, which I swear is what Darcy from in deep with you darling is doing while she's in hiding in Wakanda. I mean, there are a lot of crazy baking blogs/IGs out there, but none of them quite hit the level of Funfetti Fried Oreos or Red Velvet Oreo Lava Cakes. Clearly, she started off coming up with this stuff to keep herself from going crazy while she's there, but now she's in a groove and monetizing it (to an offshore account, of course) so when everything gets sorted out and life can get back to normal, she's got a little nest egg + a shiny new career path, yeah? (Clint has taken to adding another couple of miles to his daily run just to keep up with all the sugar and carbs she throws at him every day. He is totally okay with this.)

(I guess it really always does come back to fandom to keep me more-or-less sane. No surprise there.)

Okay, I swore (to myself, at least) that I'd keep up with the Wednesday book meme, so let's do that, too.

Hunted, Megan Spooner -- YA retelling of Beauty and the Beast, where Beauty is a hunter and spends a fair amount of her time with the Beast working out how she's going to kill him. Beauty as an archer? I was all over it, and I feel like there are a fair number of ppl reading this who would also take to the concept. And I am happy to say it pretty much fulfilled its promise, so feel free to go for it.

The Darwath Trilogy, Barbara Hambly -- I always forget how much I like her writing until I stumble over another of her books and get sucked in to a world that's different from all the others.

The Dark Days Club, Alison Goodman -- what Pride and Prejudice and Zombies could have been if the author had actually liked the conventions of the Regency romance he was building on. And knew how to create a supernatural world that overlays the normal one.

Midnight Riot, Ben Aaronovitch, narrated by Kobda Holdbrook-Smith -- I feel like I'd really like the book anyway, but the narration is ten shades of awesome.

When Dimple Met Rishi, Sandhya Menon -- New Adult romance that I think I'm about ready to bail on. It's not them, it's me, etc, etc, etc… I think I'm officially Too Old For This.

I think that Currently Reading list is more than enough to deal with for now!
26 July 2017 @ 09:33 am
Man I had the weirdest dreams last night! And there were a lot of them.

The last one (and thus the one I remember the most fragments from) was were I was somehow Bonnie and Clyding around with some escaped violent criminal. It wasn't clear if I'd gone with him voluntarily or had been kidnapped, but what was clear was that I felt a bit sorry for him because nobody seemed to see him as anything other than a violent offender. We drove to his mother's house, and he ended up crying over memories with me rubbing his back comfortingly. But at time he was also shooting up all the cars in the parking lot and scaring the crap out of me. And at one point I told him that my father was coming, and we both knew what that meant (that he had to give himself up to the police? Because my father was OFF LIMITS as far as people he might injure or kill). And he seemed to accept that.

Brain, where do you come up with this stuff?!?!
25 July 2017 @ 09:33 pm
Today was not a great day.

I got my sleep cycle out of whack this weekend staying up late reading and then succumbing to napping both days. I managed to get up on time Monday, but overslept today. And I’m still feeling meh, unmotivated. And the dark and gloomy weather ain’t helping much.

I hadn’t been able to motivate myself to get to the grocery store on Monday, so I was out of my favorite breakfast fixins. I stopped off at Cumbies on the way into work, but they were also out of my favorite back-up breakfast foods. So I was stuck with something I really didn’t want. Blah.

On the way into the office I stumbled on the steps. I managed to catch myself and didn’t hurt myself, but there was someone having a phone conversation outside, so I had a witness to my tumble. Soooo embarrassing. So by now I’m feeling pretty put out with the number of small annoyances that have already happened and wondering, “What next??!?!”

I get to my desk and discover that I’ve left my reading glasses at home. But thankfully I have a backup pair (because of course I do, I have cheap drug store reading glasses stashed everywhere). So that didn’t count against my tally of woe for the day. But then I had friend ping me on Facebook about a problem with a mutual friend. This was just a situation I didn’t want to be in the middle of. *sighs* I let her talk it out, but damn it felt awkward.

By lunchtime I had a headache, which is unusual for me. And I was having trouble getting my brain to focus on work. Come on brain, we have to adult today! By 3:00 my headache was bad enough that I dug out the Advil, which helped with the pain but not with my focus issues. Argh, bad brain! No biscuit!

I did make it to the grocery store on the way home. I may have bought some cookie dough. For therapeutic purposes only. And I made myself do a few things around the house when I got home, to try to short circuit the “you’re useless and can’t get anything done” loop that my brain seems to be playing right now.

Baby steps and self care right now. It’s all I can do.
25 July 2017 @ 09:30 pm
M and A met and talked last night. That's all I know, M didn't post anything more than that they were going to talk and he didn't know how it was going to go.

But today they were at least leaving each other civil comments on Facebook posts (they were always a very chatty couple on each other’s FB, leaving comments and posting things to each other).

I don’t know what’s going to happen with those two, but I’m glad to see that they’re back to at least a little civil interaction with each other.
25 July 2017 @ 08:24 pm
This guy is hilarious!

People like to be social, and they like to do things. This is why historic segments with alot of actives, get more actives.

Now, all things we do might look very planned when it is digested and pooped out in blogform. But mostly they are about as planned as this:

Me: Hey, its supposed to be nice weather tomorrow, forest?
Emil: Yeah, we aint been out since two weekends ago. You finally going to shoot that hornsoundingvideo?
Me: Naa….. dun feel like it.. I need to check up sources…. lets just.. eat cheese.
Emil: Ok, new forest?
Me: Naaa….. lets take the same one as I’m lazy and don’t wanna walk to far before we get to the actual woods.

Time for planning: approx ten minutes.

Time to prepare approx 20 min (including looking for braes -ten minutes)

This is an excellent way to keep your medievaling going and get to use your clothes that you put all those hours into making.

I really envy some of the events I see [personal profile] robinsnest and her friends attending. And I need to try to get something similar going up here. Just a bunch of costumed ladies going out for tea, or playing croquet on the lawn in the park. Any old excuse to dress up in "old timey" clothes and go gad about.
25 July 2017 @ 10:12 pm

Write a poem about

“He who wants a rose must respect the thorn.” — Persian Proverb

Poems do not have to match the prompt exactly. Prompts are only meant to inspire and be a jumping off point for your own creativity.

Poems can be posted in the comments directly or linked to your own journal.

25 July 2017 @ 09:59 am
Ruby, the title character of the book, is a black woman who fled to New York City when she was young but ultimately comes home to a black township in East Texas. Adjusting to life in the South after the freedoms of the North is harder than Ruby realizes it will be, and the pressure of her barely suppressed childhood traumas quickly results in severe mental illness (or, to be more accurate, something modern readers will quickly recognize as mental illness, while the townsfolk mostly blame her for "not keeping herself under control"). Ruby herself believes that she is haunted. As a child, she witnessed terrible things happening to other children, and now the souls of those children flock to her for protection. Readers get the choice of how to interpret these "haints" -- as a symbolic representation of being trapped in a moment of trauma, or as literal ghosts that cling to Ruby's skirts. The situation comes to a head when Ephram, who loved her from afar as a child, sets himself as Ruby's protector amid fierce opposition from his ultra-religious sister.

This book contains serious triggers for rape and child abuse, both of which are referenced below the cut.

I need to discuss this book with somebody (spoilers) )
On Friday [personal profile] malterre posted a link on Facebook to 5 ScI-Fi Fantasy novels with badass middle-aged heroines. Which made me think of Hunting Party by Elizabeth Moon. The main character is Captain Heris Serrano, who has recently resigned her commission in the Regular Space Service. Her new job is piloting the space yacht of the wealthy and eccentric Lady Cecelia de Marcos. Heris is a middle-aged woman, somewhere in her early forties, and Lady Cecelia is in her early eighties. Both are really great characters. Heris is the sort of brave, smart career soldier you would expect from a legendary military family. Lady Cecelia is the sort of gives no fucks rich eccentric lady that I'd love to be when I grow up.

So of course, when I got home I pulled my copy of Hunting Party down off the bookshelf. And despite the fact that I knew it would lead to a book binge, I started it on Saturday morning. I read it all the way through, then started reading the next book, Sporting Chance. I read that all the way through, then started on the third book in the series, Winning Colors, which I’m still reading.

The first two books are sort of standard space opera (smugglers! Evil superior officers! Political intrigue! Space pirates!) But the third book in the series tackles a more serious issue that has stuck in my head since I first read it back in 1995. In her “Familias Regnant” universe medical technology has figured out how to rejuvenate people, in the literal meaning of the word. Lady Cecelia undergoes rejuvenation and her 83 year old mind now resides in the body she had when she was 40. It’s expensive, but if you have the money, the newest rejuvenation process can be repeated more than once. In the novel Moon explores what problems are caused when the younger generation of the corporate upper class can’t take their positions in the family business because their parents can’t die and refuse to retire. What does it do to a society when we extend our lifespans enough to interrupt our economy? We’ve already seen a bit of this, with the Millennial generation waiting for the Baby Boomers to retire and free up jobs. And there’s more coming, when the Baby Boomers all retire and collect social security and need medical care for decades longer than people used to (when Social Security first started, most people retired at 65 and were dead by 66).

And I always think about this book when I look at the British Royal Family. Prince Charles is more than old enough to retire (he’s 68) but he has not yet even started the job he’s been training his whole life for, being King of England. If Elizabeth lives as long as her mother did, Charles has another decade to wait before he ascends the throne (the Queen Mum was 101 when she died, and QEII is 90). And where does that leave Prince William and his son, Prince George?

So yeah, I spent my weekend in the Book Fort, completely offline. And it was good.
24 July 2017 @ 11:08 pm

  • Some poetry

  • A few poetry prompts coming up

  • emails to people I haven’t in too long, oops

  • not much else

But lots of love, y’all!

Been super busy on the work front and read a book in the last two days on agile IT and did lots of testing while holding off on further documentation that we need. But ugh, we really need customer buy-in to get further on that. I suspect our new approach will help, but I suppose it’s not my job to make it happen. I just hate not making progress on work I actually know what to do next.

There’s other work still on my plate, that I don’t know what to do next.

And tonight I must pack. Have a wonderful evening, y’all!

24 July 2017 @ 12:53 pm
 I've been stupidly stressed recently, so last night my brain decided to help me out by supplying a dream in which I hang out with Oscar Isaac in a library and we wander amongst the shelves talking about books. We had a long conversation about Hamlet and he told me Meaningful Things about how he sees the character as an actor and so forth. No idea what they were, but they were interesting and insightful. Anyway, good job, brain.
Current Mood: awake
23 July 2017 @ 10:30 pm
[personal profile] fritzfics has a new AOS Jones fic that I beta'd. Linkie here.
Current Mood: cheerful
If anyone would have told me in January 2016 that I would have a Disney movie among my all-time favorite movies by the end of the same year, I probably would have laughed that person in the face. Sure, I had seen several Disney movies before (most memorable are "Ice Age 1", "Finding Nemo", and "Cars"), but none of them really had what it takes to get on my list ;) And I really thought that wouldn't change - until last December 25th, when my local TV station decided to air one of the latest big hits: Frozen. I immediately fell in love with the storytelling, the wonderful characters, the music - long story short, with everything this movie has to offer. And I even bought my very first Disney DVD afterwards. This batch was made for [community profile] disney20in20. Enjoy!

A Tale Of Two Sisters... )

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22 July 2017 @ 04:46 pm
(Also, I hope we get a better acronym soon. DIS? I got nothin'.)

Current Mood: excited
21 July 2017 @ 08:55 pm
“My life may be a shit show right now, but I have friends that love me enough to help shovel me out.

I’m glad M has got friends to support him through this.
21 July 2017 @ 03:28 pm
I started to do the Wednesday book meme, realized it had been months since I’d last done it--including Beach Week, where I read non-stop--and threw up my hands. I’ve finished/abandoned 20ish books since then and typing them all out is a bit overwhelming. (If you’re interested, I’m here on Goodreads. Also, I'm happy to add/friend you there, too, just let me know.)

I did want to note that I have finally gotten to the end of the published Dresden books – it’s taken almost 2 years, but I’ve listened to every single one of them. This, btw, is a lot of James Marsters in my ears. (This is generally not a bad thing.) The boys are ecstatic that I am not spoilable any more.

It’s weird, though… Between catching up on that and finishing up watching Parks & Rec, my brain is all adrift for what I should be watching/listening to next. Even if I detoured off to something different, there’s always been that next ep/book waiting in the wings. For *years*…

For my tv-watching, I think I’m going for Brooklyn 99 next – it seems to have a similar tone as P&R and for audiobooks, maybe Rivers of London. I’ve downloaded the first of that, but then I got sidetracked on all the Disney podcasts flipping out over all the new stuff from D23. I’ve reached my Disney fanboy limit, though, so it’s probably time to get back into narrative mode. (But if any of you want to talk Galaxy’s Edge, etc, please feel free to chime in in the comments. Also, if you need a traveling partner to Orlando, I do still have that Annual Pass just burning a hole in my (virtual) pocket…)

(I should also do a rewatch of Battlestar Galactica, before DragonCon, and the boys are clamoring for me to go finish up Clone Wars so I can watch Rebels, also in time for DragonCon. Yeah, that’s going to happen…)
21 July 2017 @ 08:47 am
This is my journal. It's where I dump my brain. I tell myself that even if I do love comments and comment conversations, I'm not writing for an audience, I'm mostly writing for myself. But I am aware that people read what I put out there, so I also try to provide backstory and context so that other people can follow along and this isn't just some random brain dribblings, well, at least not all the time... I write about my life and adventures, but I also just quote random things that I want to remember, or articles that gave me Thinky Thoughts™.

Very well then I contradict myself; I am large, I contain multitudes.

So when people that I don't "know" subscribe to me, I always wonder, have you actually read my journal? Or did you just click on one of the interests listed in my profile and decide to add me? Do you have any idea what you’re getting into?

You have? Well, OK then. Welcome to my world.
21 July 2017 @ 08:12 am
Most of my main circle of friends are people that I’ve met in the fifteen years since I left The Wasband. My closest circle is, not surprisingly, my Guild mates. But I also have a lot of friends that I’ve met through renn faire and reenactments.

But what makes me think that I’m not too horrible a friend is that I’m fairly lucky in that I am still in touch (at least Facebook friends) with:
• My oldest friend in the world (who I met when I was five)
• One of the girls that I went to Montessori school with and have known since first grade
• Another friend from Montessori that I’ve known since second grade (who hunted me down on Facebook)
• The girl who became my second best friend when her family moved to our neighborhood when we were in fifth grade (I think?)
• The girl from France who lived in Lexington for two years when we were in fourth and fifth grade (who also hunted me down on Facebook)

I’ve also got a handful of friends from High School (which was a LONG time ago) on my Facebook friends list. And a couple of good friends from college. And I’ve got two ex-boyfriends on my FB list (I’m not great at being able to maintain a relationship with my exes, it’s often too painful).

But, you can never have too many friends, and keeping friends requires some effort. (Note to Self - put in some effort this weekend.) So I wanted to hold onto this advice on How to be better at staying in touch with friends and being a good friend: a step-by-step guide.

A post in several Tweets )